A lot has changed recently that I can't explain away. It's not a bad thing, just something that's not been expected. This morning I tried something different. I worked on focusing how I wanted the day to be. Then after I got a huge revelation after finishing the book I was reading, I walked to St. Patrick's cathedral (located not too far from my temp agency) and since I didn't have a booking, stopped by in there. I went all the way back to the cathedral where there is a statue for the mother of the catheral and I sat down in one of the pews. I prayed and thanked the higher power for my revelation. I have to admit the thank you I sent was so powerful, I started crying. Then something really strange happened. I felt my clutched hands vibrating. Not shaking, but vibrating with electricity. I can still feel some of the tingling feeling in my hands now as I type this up, and it's been over three hours now! I don't know how else to explain it, but it just is. What was the revelation? Outside of the fact that when it comes to others loving us, and when we feel love, the truth of the matter is all the love we ever feel in our lives is our love that we give ourselves permission to feel at the time. Nobody injects love into us and even if we are around the most loving people on earth, if you don't have love for yourself, you will not feel the love they're sending at all. So in truth, it's actually kinda rediculous for people to go out searching for their true love, when it's actually their true love looking at them in the mirror. We don't need anyone's permission to feel love, only our own. So that whole feeling of emptiness because no one is loving us is only supplied by ourselves and can be filled by ourselves. This whole revelation answered the age old delema I could not understand which was "if you can't love yourself, you can't love anybody else". There was something magical in finding this out, outside of the shockwave of personal ground breaking information I found out, that confirmed a long standing feeling of mine, but was confirmed by physicists, namely quantum physicists. The theory that we are all connected, when in truth, it is fact. One thing that someone does leads into a chain reaction that affects even those we might never meet face to face in our lifetimes. And from the time we are born, we are connected to everyone and everything on this planet, and when these points meet, it's called entanglement. Nothing in this universe is seperate, which means you are already connected to everything you want and need. It is only your mind that limits you, because human intention can alter the actions of these quarks (sub atomic particles). Since we are all made up of these particles, this also means that if focused enough, we can change not only the actions that we take, but even the universe around us, since we are already interconnected as is. There was also something else, but I think I'll share that at another time.

Categories: miracle [t]

i really... can't read all of that, i'm not good with reading blobs of texts (i think you forgot to check the 'generate line breaks'), but i read the part about finding true love within yourself... that part was beautiful =]

oh! now, the main reason i came to comment here today is to say...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =DDDDDDD Wishing you the BEST birthday ever!!! May God bless you dearly on this special day!

L8r,

—×Kuri×—
» Kuri on 2006-08-30 11:51:24

Yes, love is what brings humanity together. We're all siblings, a big family with God as our true parent.

i commented on the previous entry, but it's gone. >.< So, I'll say it here. There are so many miracles happening around us. Things you wouldn't normally notice.

"God blows across the land. Call him and feel his breathe on your face. That is your faith."

I'm not religious, but I understand faith. ^-^
» Silver-dot- on 2006-08-30 01:51:16

Oh, and Happy Birthday! I know it's not fun to be 29 and 30 within a day. XD But it's your birthday!

Imagine streamers and confetti falling from the sky and littering your hair. ^-^
» Silver-dot- on 2006-08-30 01:55:19

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