I'm starting to think I should got see a shrink. I go through such highs and lows. It's great when I'm on the highs. They're all natural. Just thankful for what I have.

But when I crash, it's scary.

The thoughts I have sometimes border between meloncholia to possibly dementia. I have these fucked up thoughts like I'm just waiting for the end. That there's nothing left. My mind wants to kick my own ass for these thoughts, but it seems like the more I try, the worse they get. The feeling of uselessness overwhelms me. I know it's self defeating and I should do anything and everything in my power to shake it off, but I don't know how. My body's tired too. I feel so sluggish a lot of the time that it seems like an effort just to get through the day.

Then there are the highs. When I feel like everything's right with the world. I'll be walking down the street with a smile on my face. I feel good and everything just feels perfect, and for that moment, it is. I have this uplifted feeling, regardless of how many miles I walked, regardless of the weather. It can be storming and I'll feel that way. It's as if I were walking on cloud 9. It's a great feeling.

I will admit I've done perfectly well without medication and therapy thus far, but I'm beginning to think that this is getting the better of me.

Or perhaps I'm suffering through hormonal imbalance bc of PMS.

*sigh*

In which case I should just sit tight for now and see what happens. But I really should work on myself regardless.

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But to give you something to think about, for all you holdem' players out there, this one's for you...

Everyone has highs and lows but if you cannot control them or they happen too frequently, you may want to seek professional attention. Gettting the proper care is the most important thing. :)
» kkama67 on 2007-05-22 12:38:30

Ah, highs and lows are natural occurrences in life. If YOU think there's something wrong, then go get help. *shrug* It's crazy and *whisper* I get them, too! ;D
» Silver-dot- on 2007-05-23 01:00:55

*Hugs* I hear you... I just started seeing one. It's not too bad so far. If you're finding it scary, I'd definitely recommend it. That's why I started - because it stopped being normal and started being frightening.
» LittleBrit on 2007-06-03 08:28:15

(Damn the enter button). Good luck hun :-)
» LittleBrit on 2007-06-03 08:28:31

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